In His Presence

Have you ever sat and wondered what God sounds like?  Over the last few months, I have learned that many things in my life remind me of God.

As a quiet breeze blows through the cold night air, I sense His presence.  As I sit in my bedroom at night, when everyone is fast asleep....it is there He is listening and waiting.  There are so many places that we can find Him, if we just stop to seek Him.  I wrote a song last fall, when my life took a very different turn that I was just blown away by.  This was the fourth song that I have written, but this song is so different than the others.  I believe this song marks a time in my life......when I was in such awe of what God can do when we are obedient.  I wrote the lyrics in about ten minutes and immediately went to my keyboard and played the tune.  It was a totally God inspired song, which I have named, "In His Presence".  I haven't recorded it yet, I will try to do that soon.  

Although, I was in such an amazed place....it was also the start of a journey to healing for my body.  Shortly before this day, I began breaking out with eczema which itched so intensely some days.....that I wanted to scratch until I bled....and some days, I did just that.  It has been a process of discovery, but the eczema on my body has basically disappeared.  I am however dealing with a new issue, which I can't hide....which I was able to do with the eczema on my body.  I am the process of detoxing my liver.  Through this process I now have a detox rash that is covering the majority of my face and neck.  It was nearly gone until the last few days.  For a moment today, I wanted to believe that everything was normal and I could have sugar again.  Today, I ate a peppermint candy as a breath mint, this was the worst idea ever.  It only contained two things....peppermint oil and sugar.  Unfortunately, I am now completely inflamed again on my face and neck.  What was mostly gone....is now back times ten.  Not only does this rash look quite lovely, but it also itches and hurts.     

The last few months have been a quiet reflective time, in my life.  So many times in our life we spend busy running around with schedules that we just can't keep up with....let alone embrace.  God has taken this time in my life to slow me down....to a crawl!  Not only have I slowed way down, but I feel even more reflective than I have in years.

Looking through some of my old posts, I discovered a post from about a month ago in which, I was feeling totally overwhelmed.  I also discovered that I never posted it.  I wonder why I never posted about feeling overwhelmed???     

Presently however, I am feeling as though I am supposed to keep things in my life simple....  By simple, I mean that my priorities must be God, my family & friends and myself.  I must continue with the tasks that God has prepared me for.  I often find myself wondering if previous commitments are supposed to be broken, but God continues to smooth out all of the rough edges.  I love that God is in complete control of what is going on in my life.  I am able to see His hand in everything that is taking place.  Sometimes, I just wish God would make things happen a little faster in my life(on my schedule).  I know that God's timing is always perfect, but it is so hard to wait for his timing sometimes.  I also know that as long as I stay in His presence, He will continue to work on changing me into the person that He desires me to be and my life into what he wants for me.

Thank you Jesus, for loving me so much that you won't ever leave my side....even when I try so desperately to do things my own way.